Self Sabotage

“I told my mom I was fine when she called and now I feel guilty for lying but also relieved I didn't have to explain anything.”

“I told myself I'd only check Instagram once and it's been an hour and a half.”

“I spent $200 I don't have on things I convinced myself were necessities and now I can't sleep.”

“I practiced the conversation in my head so many times that when it actually happened I couldn't say any of it.”

“I keep telling people I love working from home but the truth is I've only left the apartment twice this week.”

“I put my phone face-down when he walked into the room and I'm not even doing anything wrong, which makes it weirder.”

“I cried in the bathroom at work and then walked back out and answered a question about Q3 deliverables.”

“I told myself I was being productive but I've just been reorganizing the same three folders on my desktop for an hour.”

“I sent the email and immediately wanted to take it back for a reason I can't fully articulate.”

“I've been meaning to call my dad for three weeks and every time I think about it I find a reason to do it later.”

“I turned down the offer because the timing was wrong and I've been wondering ever since if I just told myself that.”

“I check his location sometimes not because I don't trust him but because the app is there and I have a brain that does this.”

“I keep starting new habits on Mondays like the day of the week has any bearing on whether I'll actually follow through.”

“I had the thought that I might be doing okay today and then I immediately looked for evidence against it.”

“I've started saying I'm an introvert because it's easier than explaining that I'm just afraid of not being liked.”

“I've started leaving parties early and telling myself it's because I'm mature about my sleep and not because I can't handle small talk anymore.”